Self Confidence

Hello!

Sorry today's post wasn't put up very early. I wasn't sure what I wanted to write about, and then I decided to write about something that's very close to me: Self Confidence.

I've struggled with self confidence for a very long time now, as I'm sure most everyone does. I was a very self-assured kid, the popular one at school that had a lot of friends, but didn't kick anyone out of my friend group. Then we moved almost an hour away from where we had been. It forced me to make new friends, which I had always been good at before. I assumed it would be easy, but my identity had been founded in my friends, and I had to learn how to be myself in a whole new world with new faces and very different experiences than my previous friends. Thus started my struggle with understanding who I was and who I wanted to be.

Every day, seeing myself in the mirror in high school, I would see myself and think to myself, "You look good. make a difference, or just get through today. Do what you can handle, but do your best." Looking back, I had no idea what I was doing, and I struggled the whole way through. Some things happened to me during high school, and they broke my idea of who I was and what the world was like. I am still working through recovering from them, but I'm grasping at what is me and what is going to be me.

It hasn't been until just this past year that I feel like I am beginning to grasp who I am. I moved away from home to college in Chicago, and I had a chance to get away from all of the stereotypes and predispositions in my old town. I got to show who I had been trying to become back home to no avail. New friends meant a chance to make a fresh start and work on sowing my best parts of my personality, and attempting to hide my emotional scars, rough past, and insecurities.

Sometimes we get caught up in, "this is what/who I am, and I don't think it will ever be able to change." That's one of the worst things to say to yourself. Changing yourself for the better, like getting rid of a bad habit, and seeing yourself as worthy of love and attention, takes time. It's a daily struggle. There are times when you don't know if you can keep doing it because it's just easier to fall back to how you were before. Sometimes you will slip up. But that is ok, because there are people who want to help and remind you of your importance. And remember, you can do it. You are worth it. Sometimes it will be very difficult, but take it a day, an hour, a minute at a time, and you can learn to love yourself.

If you ever need a reminder of your worth, a note of encouragement, or a little boost of confidence, send me a message or leave a comment, and I'll be happy to be able to tell you how much you mean to this world <3

Have a wonderful day!

Kaylen